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”What do you mean no? Didn’t she want to go on the London Eye?”

”No Niall!” I pushed him away from me so he could see my facial expression.

”She said no!”

Niall finally understood what I was saying.

”YOU PROPOSE?!”

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Niall yelled so loud it reached every inch of the apartment. The rest of the lads came running.

”You WHAT?!” Louis exclaimed.

”You heard me!” I responded irritated. ”I propose! And now my life is over!”

The comfort from the hug Niall had given me a few seconds ago had already run off me like dirt under a shower jet. I was so mad I might just burst into flames. My inside was boiling. I stormed out of the hall straight into my room. I shut the door with a slam, sat down on the bed and placed my back against the wall.

”Hey Harry?” Liam carefully pushed up the door and peaked through the opening. I didn’t answer.

”Wanna talk about it?” He tried. I still didn’t answer. He came up to the bed and sat down next to me.

”This must be tearing you apart.”

Liam really tried to comfort me. I couldn’t lock him out for much longer.

”It is.”

I leaned towards him and cried silently against his shoulder.

”I’m sorry. I’m not really mad. Especially not at you guys. But it’s just... It hurts. I’m not angry I’m just hurt.”

”I know Harry. It’s okay.” Liam stroke away a tear.

”Is this as hard as it gets Liam?”

I looked at him with shiny eyes.

”I...” Liam seemed helpless. ”I don’t know.”

”I just want it to be over. Do me a favor.”

”Sure, anything Harry.”

”If I fall asleep, don’t wake me up.”

 

Is it over yet?

Can I open my eyes?

I seemed to have fallen asleep after all. But it took a lot of effort to even make myself squint. My eyes were sore from all the crying. I didn’t want to be awake anymore. The reality was too painful. I wanted everything to be over, to make the hurt go away. Liam had kept his promise and not woken me up. Although he was no longer awake either. My head was resting on his lap and Liam was still sitting in an upright position and slept with his head to the side. I chuckled. For how long had I, we, been alseep? I took a quick look at the alarm clock next to my bed. I sighed out of relief. We had not slept away the whole day. In fact we couldn’t have been asleep for much longer than an hour. Carefully I sat up to not wake Liam, he had such a peaceful look on his face. Even though his mouth was half open and drooling a tad. I held back a laughter. I got out of bed and moved along to the living room to see if anyone of the lads were there. Zayn and Niall sat together on the couch and watched a movie. Zayn saw me from the corner of his eye and knocked on Niall’s shoulder. Now they both looked at me with worried faces. Zayn paused the film and turned off the tv screen so it went pitch black. The two of them hopped a bit to each side and made room for me on the couch.

”How are you feeling?” Zayn asked.

”Life sucks.” I informed and sat down in the space between them.

”Aw Harry.” Niall gave me a cuddle.

”Do you know how it feels to have your heart ripped out of your chest?” I asked seriously.

”It will get better.” Zayn comforted.

”No I mean, do you really? Physically it makes your whole body ache. Mentally you get completely screwed up. I can’t think straight anymore. I had my entire future planned out and now it’s... Gone.”

”You have to talk to her Harry.” Niall said.

”I know I do! But, tell her what? That she has to change her mind?”

”I don’t think that’s a good start.” Niall responed quietly and looked down at his feet.

”Admit it. It doesn’t look very bright. It’s hopeless.” I sighed. ”She has to come around. That’s my only shot.”