morethanthis

You never really can fix a heart, but you can glue, tape, whatever works for ya, the pieces and hope it doesn’t fall back apart.

It was only 8:45 pm but I felt as tired as a bag of potato chips.

Wow that didn’t even make sense.

Goodnight world.

I had never liked going to school, but this was a whole new experience. The school ground was empty on studients but I was more terrified than I’ve ever been before. Somewhere inside those fair yellow walls,Victoria had no idea I was standing right outside with my guitar around my neck. I was scared out of my mind. What if she didn’t even remember me? Or what if she had found somebody else. Or simply didn’t care about me anymore, perhaps never did. I took a step inside the gates and exhaled. Pebbles crumbled under my shoes and the building seemed three times bigger, even though I had only moved about a feet closer to it. I made up my mind. I was going to do this.

No, I can’t enter in the middle of class and start singing. That’s just mad. Maybe if I sit outside and wait for her to come out, I can grab her quick. But where? Pretty pointless if I sit somewhere deserted where no one passes and miss her. I saw a flat stone on the left of the entrance, not in front of it but a bit behind to the side with view over the people coming out of the school. Perfect. That would have to be my spot. I jogged over, hopped up on the rock and studied the school and the school ground. I noticed another possible entrance, which she could come out from. But I saw that pretty clear too so that’s okay. It would be pretty hard to miss her from this point. I put up my legs in a crossed position and played a little on the guitar strings. No harm in singing through the song a couple more times. I was pretty calm and thought, maybe it’s not so scary. Then the crowd of people started rushing out of the school.

Did everyone finish school at the exact same time or what the hell was going on? The amount of youngsters buzzing from the joy of ending their classes for the day was ridiculous, I almost felt overwhelmed. How was I supposed to find Victoria in this mess? I didn’t feel like cleaning.

”Niall Horan?!” A girl’s voice said surprised. I turned around, still sitting on top of the flat rock.

”Hello?”

I looked at a girl I had never seen before. She had the biggest smile across her face and I had the feeling she was about to burst any minute.

”A-a-are you Niall Horan?” She stuttered and reached out a hand like she was about to touch me to see if I was real. I leaned a bit back and she got the hint. Her hand sank down and instead her eyes widened.

”My name is Niall yes.” I replied.

”You’re from that band. I’ve seen your video. Oh my god.” She snapped her fingers and tried to remember something.

”One Direction!”

”Ssch!” I hushed at her. If one person at this school knew who I was there was a big chance others did too. The last thing I wanted to do was draw attention to myself.

”Oh!” She chuckled. ”I’m sorry but can I have a picture?”

Right when I was about to answer I spotted someone very familiar. I was this close to scream her name out loud, but stopped myself last second.

”Yes, but hurry. I need to go.” I smiled and waved her closer to me. She lit up, pulled out her phone and stood next to me.

”Can I have a kiss on the cheek?”

I kissed her cheek, which I felt got more tense because she smiled.

”Thank you!” She said and stepped away from me.

”No problem.”

She stared at me for a moment. I rose my eyebrows questioning.

”Didn’t you say you had to go?”

”Right!” I skipped of the rock and started running.

”Bye!” I heard her shout as I left at a speed that could beat a race car. I held my guitar close to my chest so it wouldn’t break. I ducked under a branch, sprinted and caught up with her at the bus stop.

”Vic...toria.” I gasped and held one hand on her shoulder and one hand on my pounding ribcage to make it calm down. Chocked she turned around. She opened her mouth but I was faster.

”Ssch!” I hushed for the second time in a time span of less than five minutes. She realized what mistake she had been close to making and didn’t say anything. But her big brown eyes gazed at me.

”Come.” I took her hand and dragged her with me away from her friends who hadn’t noticed me coming running. I was praying no one else would notice who I was and follow us or something. We came to an empty parkinglot a bit away from the school, and finally I got to catch my breath from running around so much. I was not used to this much cardio exercise. I had been hanging at the beach, in the studio and laying upside down in the sofa eating junk food all summer.